I'm All Ears, Usually.

In the past two weeks I have had two of my girlfriends leave or dump their boyfriends and I have been all ears for both of them. I have wished so bad I could just snap my fingers and make their pain and doubt go away but it's never that easy. Well yesterday I kind of exploded. I was so sick of hearing the same thing over and over again and I snapped, I controlled myself when I was talking but I needed to get out of there and I needed a chance to vent myself. I love my friends and I want the best for them but sometimes I feel like they don't feel the same way about me. I listened to one of my girlfriends for nearly 4 hours (for the 5th day in a row) go on and on about how much she loves this guy but it just isn't going to work, nothing new to say, just complaining. Never once did she ask how I was or if anything was on my mind. In fact, I don't remember the last time she let me vent to her, about ANYTHING. I started to talk about something at one point and before I even finished my thought she was back onto her problems.
Luckily for me (and unfortunate for you guys) I have a blog were I can vent as much as I like! I'm sad, down and frustrated. I miss my grandfather, I can't stop tearing up every time I think about him and it literally kills me to know he will never see me walk down the aisle or hold my first child. I keep having memories of him and I know he is still with me but it hurts, a lot. I am frustrated with my job, I get no respect and I feel like I am running into a brick wall at full speed. My house is a mess, actually it's spotless to the eye, but underneath all that is MOLD and ishy things I can't even honestly talk about that right now. I know everyone has problems and mine are tiny compared to most but I feel like a very full glass bottle ready to break somedays. This will get easier I know.

Alright, back to yesterday. Eating was pretty good, I dug into my flex points a little, had I said no to the fruit smoothie at the salon I would have been fine, or maybe it was the chicken salad I had for dinner...either way it was worth it, I needed some protein and my body was very thankful. I ate a large amount of fruit with my chicken salad dinner and due to my stupid allergy to fruit I couldn't eat or drink anything the rest of the night (my mouth swells up and burns when I eat most fruits). So here it is, the first day of the week:

1/2 cup General Mills Fiber One (0)
Cinnamon Struessel (3)
Yogurt (1)
3 Tbsp feta cheese (2)
2 Tbsp balsamic vinegar (0)
1/2 oz portabella mushrooms (0)
Croutons (2)
1 cup pineapple (1)
1/2 cup chicken salad (6)
3/4 cups strawberries (0)
3 Waffle Fries (1)
1 medium orange(s) (1)
Smoothie (4)
Cinnamon Twists (3)

Day 1 Food POINTS values total used: 24/19
Activity POINTS values earned: 2
Weekly points remaining: 32