Just a quick update before the weekend...

Well, not much going on here other then freezing my butt off. We are expecting our first blizzard this weekend and therefore I am planning on getting a lot done at home. I have 2 papers I need to finish up and I need to study for my finals next week. Monday night is my company's Christmas Party, I am so excited...it's kind of like prom for grown-ups. One of the few black-tie events I attend every year. I have no idea what I will wear yet, I am sure I can pull something together though.
I weighed in Thursday and Friday at 119.8!!! Hopefully I can hold there until the next weigh in!!! It took 11 months but I am finally seeing my goal on the scale!
Rosie is spending the night at my house, we are planning on going over to my parents for dinner and then back home. I don't tell my sister this but when she sleeps over I let her sleep in my bed, I can't help it she is so sweet and she cuddles up in my arms. My sister and BIL are putting an addition on their house this winter, she won't say but I know it is because they want to try for a second baby!!! The best part is, when they connect to the existing house my sister and Rosie may come to live at my house!!! Hooray, how fun would that be?!? I suppose that means the BIL would move in too, I don't know if I could handle that!
4 more classes left this semester!!! The countdown begins! Have a super OP weekend everyone!!

WI and an update

Today was WI, I wasn't expecting much...who am I kidding, I was expecting a gain. Guess what??? 120.5, no gain, no loss!!! WooHOOO!!!! I know it isn't as good as a loss, but after this week "off plan" I was happy to see that the scale wasn't punishing me!
So to clarify the hefty price tag on my boots...I don't do this often. In fact, the last time I bought a new pair of shoes was probably 2 years ago. I love shoes, but most of what I have is either passed down from my sister or bought of the sale rack at famous footwear. The boots I have been wearing I got for Christmas 6 years ago! I am feeling pretty guilty though about how much money we spent!
The semester is quickly coming to an end for me. I have 2 exams, 2 papers and 1 presentation I am preparing for. I cannot wait to have my nights free again, even though it is only for a month.
I know there was more I wanted to catch up on but I can't even remember right now.

The long weekend!

It feels like it has been about a month since I have checked in on everyone! Even though I didn't make goal on Wednesday, it was a great day. I spent the entire day in the main office planning and managing Holiday stuff (party, decorations, gifts). This is a tradition for our family every year and I love that I am finally a part of this tradition in the company. Anyways, I decorated an 11 ft. tree at the office and prepared for almost 150 poinsettias to be delivered next week. After the office closed I headed to my stylists and had my hair colored, cut and styled, it felt great to catch up with Mandy and get my mess of a head cleaned up a bit.
Thursday morning Derek and I started cooking around 9. Pumpkin pie, pumpkin bread, chocolate pumpkin cupcakes, mashed potatoes, stuffing, cranberries, rolls, etc... I love cooking and Derek was great in helping me out. We had a lot of fun and just relaxed the rest of the afternoon before heading to my parents to help out for dinner.
We decided late Thursday afternoon that we would attempt to go out shopping on Black Friday! We hit up Kohls first, 55% off our AeroBed! Next it was to Ulta were I picked out some new perfume. We headed back home to pack our bags for the weekend before heading out to Macys. I found a couple sweaters and a blouse on sale and then headed for the shoe department, were I found these! I know what you are thinking, who in their right mind would pay that much for a pair of boots? Me! Yep, I am a Coach FANATIC! I have everything Coach, from luggage and purses to keychains and glasses. I just cannot get enough of the stuff. When I saw the boots I knew I had to try them on, I didn't expect to like them as much as I did though. We had a 20% off coupon and Derek bought them as my Christmas present this year. I just love them, I need to find some better jeans to show them off with though.
Anyways, we spent way too much money, but it was fun! We headed for his parents house around noon and spent the weekend just hanging out.
As far as food goes, I really didn't go overboard on Thanksgiving, I did however eat anything and everything that looked good the rest of the weekend. It was something about being "out of town". I was up just a little this morning, I am back on track today though and drinking all the water I can handle!!

WI...

120.5 ... 1/2 pound away from goal!

Just Checking in

I know I haven't posted at all this week and it is because I am trying to get a bunch of homework wrapped up for the big holiday weekend. Tomorrow is my official WI, keep your fingers crossed for me, I will post the result first chance I get.
My sister and I are starting to work on wedding plans again, the stores are full of snowflake merchandise (my wedding theme) so it is the perfect time to get some ideas. I can't wait to get some ideas!
I am cooking dinner for 9 people on Thursday, I have found lighter recipes for almost everything. The BIL is very picky so I will have to bake him his own Apple pie (he won't eat pumpkin pie or anything that is "low fat") I am not going to tell anyone the mashed potatoes, stuffing, gravy and pumpkin pie are not the "normal" recipes. The only person that would complain or say anything is stupid BIL anyways so I am not worried about it.
I will be back in the morning with the official WI, hope everyone has a wonderful and safe Thanksgiving weekend!

It feels like a Monday!

Typically Fridays are my easy day, I don't have to leave the house as early and I always get out at a decent hour! Today though, I left the house 15 minutes early got here and I have been running ever since. Just a busy day. Hopefully I can get everything done before 4 and get the heck out of here!! I have a bunch of homework I am bringing home with me to do this weekend and other then babysitting I have nothing planned.
I think I might try to get out of here in time to pick Rosie up from daycare, I haven't seen her since Sunday and I love how excited she gets when I pick her up. Blog land seems pretty slow, maybe you are all running around like me!
Have a great weekend!

I got this!

Okay so I am finally felling almost 100%, only took a week! I had three papers due for school this week and since I was down for the count all weekend I was left to do these sometime between my 10 hour workday and 3 nights of class. I'm still not sure how but I rocked those papers out, and they are actually well written too. I really do think I should become a professional student. I told Derek that I wanted to apply for my masters in Design (I am currently earning mine in Business) and he just about fell over. He said he would support my decision either way but would like to to take a break for at least a year. I get that, I am currently pushing myself to the furthest limit but if I do this, I want to have it done right away. What if we decide to have kids? There is no way I could do this and be prego. I remember how tired and sick my sister was with Rosie. Anyways, that is on my mind.
Work has been quiet this week. The PM that works with me is out this week with a new baby! I love having the trailer to myself and not feeling like I have someone watching what I am doing!
The food front has been a little sketchy. Up until today the only thing that sounded good was apple juice and PB&J sandwiches. I probably ate and drank my points away pretty quick over the past week. I haven't been back on the scale, I might hold off for this weekend to get back on.
Derek and I are having date night tomorrow. He is taking me to dinner (no idea where) and he bought a movie for us to watch back at home (Oceans 13) I cannot wait!!
Well, I am off to check up on all of your blogs, have a wonderful day!

Stomach Flu!

Yep, I have been MIA because I have been in bed and on the bathroom floor since Thursday night. I got home from class on Thursday and felt dizzy and hot, my stomach started to hurt right as I was getting into bed and about 5 minutes later I was in the bathroom. I felt fine up until it hit so I was sure it must have been something I ate. Friday I felt okay to go to work, about 5 minutes after I ate my breakfast I was running to the bathroom.
Needless to say I was at home Friday, Saturday, Sunday and Monday with little energy and feeling like crap! I still feel a little dizzy and my stomach is still very tight, but I have been able to keep food down for 24 hours so I am on the mend! One of my co-workers got the same bug and he is still a little woozy from it, hopefully by tomorrow I will at least feel 90%.
I pushed myself this weekend. I was so excited to have Rosie stay at my house that I tried to ignore how horrible I felt. I got through Saturday fine and then Sunday morning I gave in and asked my Dad to watch her. I cried when I dropped her off at my Dads because I know she could tell I was leaving her and she hugged me so tight. She also could tell I didn't feel great, she kept touching my face and putting her head against mine. She was such an angel.
Well, I haven't been eating much, but I got on the scale this morning and I was up a pound
...WTF??? Hopefully since I am eating again it will drop back down for WI tomorrow.

Thursdays

I love Thursdays because the day always fly by, I have my favorite class and tomorrow is FRIDAY! I hate Thursdays Because I am in meetings from 7-12 with Owners and it is the only day of the week I can't throw on jeans and a sweatshirt. The summer was okay because I could throw on a skirt or my dress pants with a nice dress shirt but now that we are down in the 20s, skirts are out and I have already worn the one pair of dress pants that fit me 3 weeks in a row. I have been in size 4s for months now, but for whatever reason I can't get myself to just go out and buy some new pants. I have about 15 very nice pairs of "dress" pants, all size 10 and all of which look like a pair of want to be parachute pants. I put a pair of 10s on this morning and asked Derek how they looked and he says "good, they look good" at the same time tilting his head and squinting his eyes a bit. I took one look in the mirror and started to bawl, talk about an easy way to make my butt look about 3 feet wide!
Anyways, I am very excited for this weekend. Derek and I will have Rosie starting this afternoon through Monday morning (remember my BIL needs a break, so he is getting a trip to Vegas). We are hoping to do a little work around the house but for the most part just hang out with Rosie and take things easy. I actually had to hire a babysitter for Saturday night, it felt so weird. One of my best girlfriends is going to watch her while Derek and I attend a Gala for the Owners on my jobsite. Should be a fun night, hopefully I can find something nice to wear in my mess of a house!!!

Our Fight

Derek and I got in a little fight last night, well more like bad communication. After Derek's comma, he fell behind in his Tuesday night class and his professor is unwilling to let him make up the work or do extra credit. At this point he can either finish the class with a poor grade or drop the class and retake the course next semester. I have never been in this sort of situation and since we spent the money on the class I hate to just say "give up". I know that it has been a major source of stress for him and he feels completely burnt out between the new job and school.
Anyways when I got home from work last night he tried to explain what he was feeling and I got upset because he said "you don't understand how stressful it is". I broke down, I may not show it to him but I am exhausted. Waking up at 5, taking care of the house, going to work till 4, heading directly to school until 9 and then coming home to dishes in the sink, him laying on the couch and still needing to pack my lunch and get things ready for the morning. I know that I have the benefit of being at a computer all day and can sometimes manage to get some schoolwork finished during my breaks, but in no way is this easy or un-stressful. I want to give up, I want to break down and cry, but I said I was going to do this and I have no intentions giving up. At the same time, I depend on Derek a lot. I make him set his alarm to wake me up, I constantly complain about the closet not being finished and I always keep him busy. I guess I am not great at giving him time to do homework, and sometimes I expect him to never take a break. I still have a lot to learn, we both do. I hate fighting though, I hated leaving this morning upset and feeling like I don't do enough. I know that he had no intentions of making it seem like I have things easy or that I don't do anything, the comparison is hard to ignore.
On the food front, I am staying OP, doesn't feel like it, but I am. I have been eating breakfast early (around 7) a few small, low point snacks throughout the day (granola bar, yogurt, fiber one, vegetable soup), followed by an early dinner (around 5). I am done eating for the day by 6:30. I think the fact that I am in class and can't snack during the evening really helps me. Hopefully I will be to goal by the end of the month!

What is a pound?

I jumped on the scale a day early this week...121...the lowest number I have seen in years, a pound lower then my last weigh in, but still 1 pound away from goal!!! ARGGGGHHH... I am happy to be this close but I can't help but wonder what the significance of this 1 pound is. Seriously I will never be an even 120 for an extended period of time, so why is seeing that number so darn important to me?? I played around with the word success this morning, but I see my weight loss as a success whether I am 121 or 120. I won't fit into a size smaller jean, it won't make me suddenly want to run around naked, so what is 1 lb? When do I move from weight loss mode to maintenance?

I was tagged!

The Rules:
1-Link to your tagger and post these rules on your blog
2-Share 7 facts about yourself on your blog, some random, some weird
3-Tag 7 people at the end of your post by leaving their names as well as links to their blogs
4- Let them know they are TAGGED by leaving a comment on their blog

1--My mother is legally blind and was diagnosed with MS before I was born. I had a horrible relationship with my mother as a child, my older sister more or less raised me because my mom couldn't stand to look at me (she wanted a boy).
2--When I was little I used to sneak into my sisters room crying because I thought I had stopped breathing. My sister kept a mirror next to her bed so that I could breath onto it and see it fog up.
3--I was in an abusive relationship in High School and my first few years in college. I weighed just under 200 lb. and dropped to almost 95 lbs my first year in college to make him happy. It wasn't until I dropped the weight that I finally had the nerve to be on my own.
4--I am afraid of pregnancy and child birth. I love kids but I am worried that my eating disorders may have affected my ability to have children.
5--When Derek and I first started dating he was still seeing another girl. He kept it from me for almost a month, I have never fully understood that, but have learned to forgive him.
6--I sometimes wish that I could retire and stay at home. I have always wanted to be part of the family business, but sometimes I just don't see myself here.
7--Derek bought me a new vehicle this weekend. I bought a VW Beetle back in May and I hated it, traction and space were a huge issue. Derek traded it in and got me a Chevy Equinox with AWD. I LOVE IT!

I tag:

Anyone on my blogroll and anyone who reads my blog!

Enough Already

I've had it, I can't take it anymore...being hungry that is. For the past 3 days I haven't stopped shoveling food into my mouth, I am never satisfied. I know what the problem is, TOM came for a visit late yesterday afternoon. With that my little surprise costume was out the door last night. I think I might pull it out on Sunday instead...call it a "late Halloween"!
I have so much going on my head this week. I wish I could get it all out in words on here. My sister has asked me to watch Rosie next weekend, turns out that my BIL is "burnt out"...on what you ask? Being a Dad. I know, I know it is a lot of work, but if you knew him at all you would be steaming right now. When my sister has plans, she has to ASK him if he will "babysit". Yes, it is his child but in order for him to stay with her, my sister has to first ask, and second provide him with a reason (usually a new video game, tool or some other material item he doesn't really need). Don't get me wrong here, Rosie loves him and he loves her, but he takes NO responsibility for his child. A few weeks ago, Derek and him had Rosie while my sister and I went to a wedding fair. Derek noticed before leaving to meet us at my parents house that her diaper was heavy and suggested they change it. Instead of just changing it quick BIL puts her in the car and when they get to my Dads house he says "Rosie, ask grandpa if he will change your diaper". My Dad then takes her upstairs and changes it. BIL goes outside and grabs a beer, doesn't bother to keep an eye on her or put her down for a nap (which was about 5 hours late), when my sister and I finally get there my Grandmother is carrying her around trying to get her to calm down because she is so overtired. Arghhh...sorry, I just needed to get that out.
Two of my best friends (they are twins) grandfather passed away on Tuesday, I am shocked by all the emotion that flooded back to me when I was talking to one of them today. I know the service will be difficult, but I feel it is important for me to be there for the girls. I pray that my grandfather will be there with me on Saturday to help me keep it together for them.